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Today.

Can I just say (…for the millionth time…) just how thankful my heart is that I get to serve such an incredible God. So merciful, so faithful, SO GOOD to me. I don’t know how anyone lives without His presence in their life. Seriously. Like I said not too long ago, time in His presence makes up for everything. And I mean absolutely EVERYTHING. Good or bad. It doubles the good and restores you from the bad. So so so good.

There is so much tragedy around us. If it’s not in our own lives, then it it’s in the lives around us. My spirit has been super sensitive to the weight of it all lately, there is such a heavy layer in the air. It’s just waiting. And the Holy Spirit has not been quiet about it.

I cry because I feel for the lives being affected, my heart breaks more and more by the minute, yet I cry because there is beauty in the ashes…and I am in awe of the beauty that is God and His beautiful promises that He has for those who remain faithful through it all. I feel this heartbreak as well as an overwhelming amount of joy where all I can still do is rejoice, even in the midst of it all! I have never felt more broken and I have never felt more free.

Take heart because you can overcome this too. Believe for your miracle that is coming, because it is! Declare it over your life and rejoice in the victory!

Day:Six.

Six days into this brand new year and God has already shown so much to me. I’ve only caught a glimpse of His plan for 2011 so far, but it has completely set me on fire. He has transformed my heart and my vision. It has intensified so deeply. I am more passionate about life and ministry than I ever have been before.

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I know a lot of us thought last year was a huge time of change and it was, but I feel like 2010 was a time for personal change and spiritual growth- preparation more of. And this year it’s going to be about using that and stepping out.  Changing our comfortable ways and busting through the little Christian bubble that we all get so wrapped up in, whether you’d like to admit it or not- we are all found guilty of doing so. And we can no longer waste time being comfortable and in one place. God can’t use us if we are stagnate.

Be ready to go, but be prepared for nothing. Don’t get used to the sound of something you like or a certain idea. Just be ready.

He has shown me what we as His people need to be doing and focusing on during this time instead of what we are doing and have been doing. Which is, beating around the bush and waiting. But what exactly are we waiting for? What is it holding you back?

It’s time for a stand. The time for us to go out of our everyday ways and fulfill what has been called upon our lives has come. It is now that we are to be emptied. Emptied to be used. To radically change the world around us. Fully.

Our time is flying by. Our days are becoming shorter and shorter by the minute. And we have to make it a reality to ourselves that with every minute we loose, another soul is lost. Forgotten. Left for dead. And no matter how many times you’ve already heard that or how hard it may be for you to actually apply to yourself- no matter what you have to say for yourself. It doesn’t matter. The cold hard truth of His word is that we are held accountable for every single being in this world. And honestly, we should be. Because although we live a very short life, we are given more than enough time. Excuses are not acceptable. And I take full responsibility. Because in all the time we spend hanging out with our friends or all the hours we spend inside of the four walls of the church, we should be out investing into the lives of the people living in the dark. Not the people that are already aware of the life that is to come.

I believe that 2011 is going to be an awakening. A revival. Be ready for it. Do what the Lord is telling you to and hold nothing back. Pray for realization and a passionate heart. Pray that you will be motivated and have the courage to do His work. Pray that His vision for 2011 will become yours.

Where I am.



Rainy morning train ride.
Dallas, Texas.

God has been showing me a lot lately. 
We all go through seasons spiritually and right now I’m at a very intense point in my relationship with Him. I’m being ripped to shreds and it couldn’t feel more amazing. I know it’s because a lot of things are changing and intensifying in my life right now. Life has slowly started moving along for me. I’m starting to get an idea of where I’m supposed to go, what I’m supposed to do. As to where a little over two years ago or so, I was told to stay and not move a single muscle. As time went on, I started understanding why God called me to do what He did and directed me to stay where I am. While obeying and following His plan I learned and grew so much, was stretched to incredible lengths and molded into the person I am today. It feels good to be where I’m supposed to. How I’m supposed to. But I know that getting to that point was only the start. The plans He has for our lives are never ending. When we surrender and choose to follow Him, we completely give up our lives 100%. And no matter how much changing we may do, as long as we are still here on earth we will still always have more room to change and grow spiritually. It’s a never ending process. It’s all only just begun and as exciting as it truly is, it’s also extremely challenging. I’m realizing more and more not only who I am but who I also need to become in order to do all that He has called me to do. It’s kind of like re-learning everything and starting from scratch…Again, a never ending process. But it really is an amazing feeling to know that He is working on me from the inside out. That He is completely stripping me from everything I am and ever was. To know that I’m being remodeled so that I can truly be made into purely an image of Him. Because that’s all I want in life. To be as Christ-like as I possibly can and used by it. It’s the only way I’ll ever be able to make some kind of a difference. And that is after all what we are here to do…